The Italian Voice

I decided that I have mulled over too much, now I want to react, even if my boyfriend and I will be in the distance at least for a while, even if nothing is ok for us yet, even if I have to do something which I never imagined to do here once again.
I want to stop crying, I already did it for 8 consecutive days, and I want to roll up my sleeves while waiting to change things and have my life with my boyfriend back (I really hope so).
I also want to stop telling a lot about this situation, because I have the fear that something could be misunderstood, like in fact happened some days ago.

I prepared my CV, I asked myself what will be my ideal job in this situation and I started to send my application to some agencies, supermarkets and ipermarkets which offer a job as merchandiser.

Fortunately my mother has a very kind friend who works for a supermarket of the same chain for which I worked some years ago, she wants to tell about me at the director so that maybe he will be able to offer me a position soon, it would be great!
That friend works during night shifts and I must admit that I would appreciate the same hours, as I am almost used to be awake during nights, especially in this period with this love difficulty, and as it would allow me to be free during the days and maybe also to reach my boyfriend more than what I could do with day shifts.

I started to remember that I loved that period in 2004 during which I worked as cashier into an ipermarket near Bologna, I worked only 18 hours per week receiving a nice salary and everything I did in addition was all cashed as overtime, it was wonderful!!

Cashes at the ipermarket where I used to work in 2004 and
where I sent my application again in these days (my own shot)

I know it will be hard to meet my boyfriend a very few times per month or maybe only once or nothing at all, but I totally trust in him and I know he loves me, I am sure that he knows what to do with time to avoid to force the situation, especially with his family.
Anyway, I hope he will really be able to give me another chance soon, that is why I want to wait and to “follow his rules”, showing him that I am judicious and adult, I hope that this good behaviour will pay me in the future, I really love my boyfriend and I want a future with him.

Well, I just realized that probably titled this entry in the wrong way, because nowadays the young Italians do not care much about love; if they do not have what they want, they immediately look for it somewhere else, they do not fight but, on the contrary, they choose the easiest way to be happy, which is often a fake happiness.

Sometimes I think to be very different from the major part of the young ones, I am a sort of “old fashioned” girl, the first and most important valour for me is LOVE LOVE and LOVE again, in every form, for my point of view without it I am nothing, we are nothing!!

So please, wish me good luck with the job, but especially with love, I am determined to resist and struggle because I totally love!!

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